I always knew therapy would be one of my greatest investments. But, it’s scary, isn’t it? Being vulnerable, opening yourself up completely to someone you’ve never met before. Talking about things that make you sob and break your heart.
It’s Thursday 8th October 2020 and today is different.
I’m unemployed and I think – although can’t be totally sure – it’s the 3rd lockdown during the COVID-19 pandemic.
For several days now, I’ve been in bed desperately wanting to avoid everyone I know. Every phone call is rejected, every message is left unread, and every attempt from my boyfriend to cheer me up just makes me irritable.
I’m depressed and anxious.
Let’s be clear – we all have issues.
Whether you’re suffering with generational trauma, financial burdens, addictions, break-ups, family uproar, sexual abuse, you name it. We’re all dealing with something.
We’re human.
Monday, ugh.
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday – even bigger ugh.
You get to the office and it just doesn’t feel the same anymore. For a lot of you, many colleagues would’ve been wiped out by the many redundancy waves in 2020.
Working from home will either be a blessing or a curse for you. Thankfully, I’ve got no kids, an office with everything I need and a very supportive boyfriend. I’m one of the lucky ones. For a lot of people right now, juggling the life of parenting, working, caring for others, having a new baby, completing housework, maybe even trying to work two jobs is now the norm whilst the economy and the world’s health goes to shit.
As I’m approaching my mid-twenties, I’m really starting to reflect on what I had hoped for at this age but also, what I feel I deserve this far in my life.
There is nothing stronger than being vulnerable and if I can help others with what happened to me, then I will find strength in my honesty and my openness. Kenny & I have both found a release of emotion in talking about this and I will always be so thankful for the continuous support he has given me throughout.
Today is International Women’s Day. Every single day, I am thankful to be the strong woman I have become. I haven’t done this on my own, I’ve been built up and inspired by so many like-minded strong women and today, I want to celebrate these incredible women.
Goodbye Twitter, Facebook, Instagram & Snapchat…
What a MAD year 2018 has been for me! Wow. I have so much to be thankful for yet, so many lessons I’ve learnt this year that have made me 10x stronger than I ever have been.